Since leaving my job I am continuously being asked the question, “What are you going to do now?”
It’s kind of funny when you think about it. Whenever someone asks that, they don’t really mean NOW…they mean NEXT.
“What are you going to do next?”
That is when I feel stupid. To think about what I am doing next raises lots of questions of just what the heck we are doing. At this point we think we are in northern Michigan through August, and then taking a road trip in September. Along the way I am trying to grow my passion…this site…this idea. My wife is embracing her passion of learning and teaching yoga – and together we are giving our kids an experience not often found in the classroom.
Beyond that, there is no plan. There is also no nest egg, trust fun, or savings account to fall back on. There is no net.
Awhile back I heard an interview with George Clooney where he described never having a “back-up plan.” His thought is that when there is a “back-up plan,” it makes it easier to quit when things get tough. So, if you have only one plan, and that is what you are committed to, well…there is no quitting.
Which makes me think, how many other George Clooney’s are out there that we have never heard of because they happened to have a back-up plan?
“What are you doing right NOW?”
Well, to answer that question, I feel more courageous. Right now I am focusing on living my fullest with what is right in front of me. It is not always easy, but this is the space where I feel peace, purpose, and guidance. I can feel the Divine in this moment, yet the more I start to think into the future, the less I feel connected to the Divine. It is not that I don’t trust Love will be there for me in the future, but when I get to that moment it will be the NOW…and that is really the only place the Divine lives…right here…right now.
Living my YES is not about “who I am going to be,” – but rather being the best I can be NOW. There has never been a moment in my life where I didn’t have everything I needed in that moment, even when it felt like I didn’t It was okay. I was fine. It was perfect the way it was. It is perfect RIGHT NOW.
Fear is a bastard. Not that I take it personally, but fear shows up in my life under the name “future,” and when I go down that road I often get worked over. When my thought jumps ahead I can feel it in my body, and I force myself to breathe back into the present.
In this present moment I feel courageous, but can easily feel stupid if you want me to outline my future. So, which is it?
Courageous or Stupid?